I spent a lot of time thinking about this.
As much as I like the Carpe Diem philosophy and I'd love to take life simply as it comes; it's obvious my neurotic nature does not always allow for that. It is difficult for someone who strives for perfection to adapt to this since life is the one thing we have little or no control over. Despite attempts or our sincerest willing of the outcome of a situation, we are but victims of fate and may never get these 'perfect moments' that we have fabricated over time in our minds.
Especially being a young girl, so greatly influenced by fairytales and love stories about the way these special moments should be; I personally have not had the experiences Walt Disney so elaborately described. However I have had a lot of great moments and it is important to remember in life though that things may not always play out as you had imagined but often times the non-cliche alternative is better...filled with all the imperfections that will eventually translate to originality.
So I have found that I do in fact miss out on something great in front of me because it does not match the perfect non-realistic picture I've painted. But after much bathtub-contemplation I have contraversly concluded (despite all previously mentioned points in the arguement) that I cannot change who I am...
And I am and always will be...a dreamer
So although the sacrament of love still eludes me and travelling the world is at this point in my career impractical, I can still dream of romantic sunsets or living in Peru for it is faith that keeps hope alive...and hope is the essence of our human existence.
It may be naive(the heart is rarely ever practical)I still have hope that I will one day experience these perfect moments.
"there are moments of such pure,sublime,unparalleled perfection that will force you to close your eyes and hold on to these as best you can. Life is a series of these moments. Everything else is just waiting for them." -Iain Thomas
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